Got dry skin!! DAY 36
Aug 13, 2018
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=439lZefPBBg

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good morning and welcome to zombie so
today we are gonna actually go to
Portland we have some things to get up
there we always do our shopping for like
the Egyptian stuff like the Egyptian
Mills and bread and spices
we always go up to Portland because they
just have a better like variety I guess
so all it was like you want to go up to
Portland today Ennis I probably have
nothing else better to do so let's go so
that's what we're actually off to do
today so I will check in with you guys I
think what are you guys used for like
like for your skin for the nur of the
moisture because my skin is so dry and
like it's flaking really bad and like my
skin is like itching so I know that my
skin is like drying out and I'm not sure
if it's because of the weather but if
you guys have any like suggestions on
things that you guys use for
moisturizers my skin is a little
sensitive it's not too bad but I noticed
like sometimes when I do like facial
face washes I will break out a lot and
so like I'll start like getting pimples
everywhere when I use those and I don't
have any pimples but my skin is just so
dry so if you guys have any suggestions
if you guys can drop it down below and
let me know what you guys use or if
there's any like home remedies and
things like that because I just want to
start getting my skin moisturize because
it's just so dry so yes I was thinking
about that earlier and I was gonna bring
that up and I completely forgot and look
I'm wearing my bracelet it's upside down
of course and then look I have my
it's my essential oil Nicholas it's
smells so good I put I put lavender in
it mm-hmm love it
hey guys so we are at the end of Sunday
evening and let me tell you this good
that this night could not come soon
enough
today has been such today has been a day
we will just go with that I don't know
what my kids had in their sippy cups
today but oh let me tell ya there was
some hater juice going on they were
fighting I want to say all three of them
more fighting
Oh day long I was just like for the love
of me would you stop we went to Portland
today and that was really fun except the
drive up there was not very fun and the
drive home was not very fun because I
had two toddlers in the backseat just
crying and carrying on and just I don't
know I just don't know like I asked only
today I was like my cos like what what
are we doing wrong because they are just
like not having it they are not happy
and they're gonna let the world know
almost seemed to like come out of the
bedroom this morning just in one of his
cranky moods like he immediately just
started like throwing tantrums and hmm I
was just like son yeah yeah I want to go
back to bed because
I do of course he didn't um and Ezra
woke up and she woke up in a really good
mood but because Omar was in a bad mood
they just started clashing and just
fighting and fighting and fighting I was
just like oh
guys so we came home and we had a late
lunch so in return I didn't even eat
dinner tonight because I just wasn't
hungry I ended up having a grilled
cheese sandwich healthy actually it
really wasn't bad because we used all of
our special stuff for me but I just was
like let's just make something quick
because I just are not in the mood to
dill with anything because all he was
gonna heat up the leftovers from last
night which was the okra me and the
malocchio which is a soup an Egyptian
soup but I just wasn't filling it and I
was just like you know what if I eat
tonight I'll just go ahead and have like
a summer lunch or summer dinner which is
like you know fruits and cheese and
maybe some summer sausage so we'll see
if I get hungry you know I can eat but
at this point I'm just like let's get
the kids to bed first and then I can
think about myself because yeah I'm not
ready to just like pull every piece of
strand of hair left in my head out Oh
starting with my Gray's first but no it
was it you know I think we all have
those days I think we just have those
days where it's just like when is the
big and end and then all he was supposed
to go with a friend today and hang out
but the plans didn't pan out so we ended
up having a nice afternoon just relaxing
and just relaxing spending time together
we watched a little bit of Netflix which
was nice and then I cleaned and think
that was really it we really didn't do
much today other than our little drive
to Portland and tomorrow starts our busy
week again because I've got counseling
and then
tomorrow which I'm gonna show you guys
the before and then the after I am
hoping to kind of manageably fix well
declutter and clean clean the our
bedroom our actual master bedroom and
then I have a lot of organizing to do in
there because they mm don't think they
know our closet doesn't look like that
in here so ours is kind of like a
walk-in closet I guess you would say but
it's really kind of a it's a frustrating
way that they made it because it's like
okay so you can walk in and then it's
like those wire shelves that are really
like I mean they could be nice but when
you're putting all your adult clothes on
it they become heavy and they all pulled
out well on my side they all pulled out
of the wall so they're like all half
hanging out for the wall and a which I
don't really have much in there other
than I have like some boxes of some
things that I like I guess you can say I
just wanted to keep but not not like I
don't know like I just just just junk
junk playing drunk but I can't I can't
justify it it's junk
so I'm gonna go through it all and
figure out what can be donated what
needs to be thrown away and then go
ahead and get all of all these clothes
transferred from the closet into the
dresser because we have a dresser in
there for him now and just go through
and man got it out and really put it all
back together and hopefully just
declutter tons of stuff out of there
that doesn't need to be in there
and then the hall closet that is where I
am dreading I about what was right
before yeah right before I had espera I
went through and like totally had it all
organized was so nice and just over the
last two years things get thrown in the
closet and just papers are thrown
everywhere so mommy gets to go through
them home and shred out things that
don't need to be there anymore box up
things and put them in the bedroom
closet that's like our tax papers and
all that good stuff that we need to have
do to like businesses and stuff like
that and then I'm really I'm hesitant
because I think I'm gonna probably have
to make a trip to Dollar Tree tomorrow
because I want to get some I want to get
some baskets that we can put like the
things that we need in them so that way
then that's not just like everything
everywhere and I want to clean out like
the bathroom cupboards down below
because again everything just gets
thrown in there like I mean cuz there
hasn't been really any organizing and
now it's like okay I want everything to
be organized everything has a home so
we're going to put this all together and
then also with that because of wanting
to preschool the two babies I want to go
ahead and get like one box that has like
the crayons in it another longer one
that I can do like they're arts and
crafts in it and the color pages so
everything will be kind of what do you
think can be organized and that way then
as the you know as the weeks coming like
on Sunday I can sit and say okay well
for Monday and Thursday because those
are the days that I'm going to do it
we're gonna do this and this and have
that already put into another bin that I
already have all this stuff for but then
I also know where I can go to get like
their crayons you know the
that type of stuff because I don't want
it everywhere and right now because the
kids have gotten into everything and all
my day care preschool stuff I have had
to throw it all away because Mayas
bedroom I don't even want to go to that
extent Jeremiah's bedroom because
Jeremiah brought all of his school
supplies home and didn't my little sweet
Omar decided to get into one day when
Maya was not home and I thought you know
mommy thought Omar was being good and
hunting with his trains well
Omar decided to have an Art Fest on the
walls so I have got a coloring crayon on
the walls that I'm gonna have to I'm
gonna have to get in there and get it
all off but I just really honestly
Jeremiah's room is gonna be the last
room that we come to because that room
I'm totally redoing so honestly I've
just been kind of leaving it and just
letting it be however I mean I make them
clean it but when it comes to like
organizing and stuff like that I just
told him just to kind of just because
the bins that I had for the toys they've
been broken so now there's no toy box
for them and if I put the toy box that's
in my living room in there I know it's
gonna be thrashed so I just want to
really organize get some bins really
nice bins I was thinking about getting
the ones that have like the cubbies and
then you could pull out I'm really
thinking about doing that but it just
depends because I feel like when the
three kids get in the room together it's
almost like destruction like it just and
I don't understand why but I feel like
as soon as I turn my back everything is
like getting thrown around thrashed and
just out of control so I'm really
debating on how I want to do this but
also because I kind of need to
transition Jeremiah's bedroom into an
older kids room because it is his room
and I know that he's gonna walk
privacy here soon because he's gonna be
11 so I also have to respect that as
well and I'm sure he doesn't want you
know little preschool toys and Barbies
and everything else in his bedroom I'm
sure he doesn't and he's a voice that he
would like his bedroom to be like a
sports themed kind of bedroom so I am
really torn how I want to do that
because I have this room set up as like
an adult room because this is my my go
to like I said last night I mean this is
like my sanctuary so to me this is my my
area that I get to come to I get to just
have my time my just my Co meantime you
know I turn on quiet music and I just
this is my room that I can come to and
dress up you know for the day I have all
my jewelry in here all of my stuff that
I definitely don't want the kids getting
into but then we have the master bedroom
that also is like an adult room so the
kids the baby's room they really don't
have a room so I'm just trying to play
with it and figure out how I want to do
this because I have to be fair to
Jeremiah as well with his space so I'm
just trying to kind of just play with it
and see what's gonna happen
so with that his room will be the last
room so tomorrow my goal is goal is to
go to counseling and then I know I
really needed to hit Costco
I don't know if Ali's gonna be up to it
because it's just been so chaotic over
at Costco but um I would like to run to
Costco and then from there I would like
to run to Dollar Tree really quick so I
can grab some bins and then come home
and just work the rest of the afternoon
at least you know and even if I could
just get one room done or you know like
one spot so if I decide to go ahead and
do the master bedroom I would be okay
with just you know concentrating only on
that room and I kind of need a space
myself a little bit because like today I
got up and I clean the kitchen I did all
the dishes and made the kitchen really
clean and then I from there I went and I
gave both the babies bath wash their
hair did all of that my back was like
throbbing but I was just like nope nope
nope got to go through gotta get going
and then when it came time for me to
need to take a shower I was just like
holy poo I think tomorrow morning's
gonna be my shower day because I mean I
already took a shower today but I want
to take one tonight because I like
taking one at night it just kind of
calms me relaxes me but I think I'm
gonna wait until tomorrow because I
don't want to overstep and I was in the
kitchen today and for some reason I just
stepped a little wrong and I do find
that with my knee if I step wrong and
kind of like like here says my here's my
knee and it says if I step wrong I
almost feel like it kind of clicks off
and it hurts so bad and then when it
does that I jerk so when I jerk I screw
my lower back up so I'm thinking
tomorrow the safest call is probably not
to think that I'm gonna get both things
done because otherwise that I'm gonna
feel like I didn't succeed so if I set
myself a smaller goal than I know that I
can accomplish that along with still
keeping the rest of the house clean so
let's say tomorrow I'm going to do the
bedroom yeah we'll do the bedroom
tomorrow Tuesday we can do the hallway
but what I'm going to do is I will show
you it before before and then I will
show you an after
it's gonna be I mean it will be really
nice once I get everything done is just
that rooms been neglected because I've
been so busy with the rest of the house
and getting things done here that that
room just feels like there's like no
life in it so I want to really work on
that one and give it some good and make
it back to its roomy loving comfortable
place to go anyways
so really that's all that's on the
agenda for that I am so excited to say
that I have all the names in for the
drawing I cannot wait until tomorrow I
am so I'm just as excited as I think all
of you guys are and so I'm super super
super super excited I cannot wait until
five o'clock my time Pacific time I am
solely that jazz like babe um we're
Pacific time right and he goes yeah why
and I'm like oh he goes why I said well
because I announced it was gonna be
Pacific time and I was just hoping we
were Pacific and he's like Amy I'm like
I know I know I'm really bad so yeah
five o'clock live Pacific time we will
be doing the name drawing but remember
you got to be present to claim your
prize' if you're not then I will have to
move on to the next person
so make sure make sure make sure that
you are present and then as soon as we I
do the drawing and your names called if
you're on life jump to my email and get
it done so that way then we can so
excited
but yeah other than that that's really
all that's going on not a whole lot like
I said happened today yeah just
very fun day it was just kind of a
chill-out quiet well no it wasn't quiet
a chill-out screaming hollering crying
throwing tantrum kind of day but anyways
I really hope you guys had a wonderful
wonderful weekend I sure did I got a lot
accomplished that I really had set out
for myself on goals and tomorrow starts
a whole new fresh week which is so
exciting to push forward on more setting
my goals and reaching some of those
goals one of my goals that I'm setting
up for this week is I am going to set
myself a goal that I have to no matter
what drink five of these a day five if I
drink porn that amazing but I cannot go
to bed without drinking five of these a
day
the second goal that I'm setting for
myself is I have to do my bike three
times a day for five minutes each if I
can do a little more great but five
minutes a day or five yeah five minutes
three times a day are my two goals that
I have set for myself this week and
continuing on with my healthy eating
choices and staying within my calorie
count to keep myself accountable and I
really want to see a good a good week
this week you know I'm feeling a hundred
percent back to normal thank God
sorry oh that was horrible last week and
so I just want to make sure that I
utilized this time and I really press
forward and I do exactly what I need to
do to reach all of my goals that I have
set for myself you know there's no
reason not to and so I'm really excited
for this week to begin and be able to
push myself and keep you know pushing on
with you guys and reminding you guys
that if I'm doing this I am couraging
you guys to continue to do this because
you guys are what encourages me to do
this so altogether I think that we're
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but you guys do a lot of talking behind
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let's see there was one thing I did want
to address oh um so I received a private
message from somebody a dear dear dear
dear person to me that has been here
since I started my channel basically and
this person is absolutely amazing but I
had gotten an upsetting email a couple
days ago that she was really confused
now I don't know the full story we're
still in communicated and communication
trying to figure out everything but
something had happened in the news that
it retained to a Muslim woman beating a
child if I understood this story
correctly and that this person is so
heartbroken over the situation that she
doesn't know if she can stay on my
channel due to how she feels now after
hearing this story and I just want to
say that I am so heartbroken first of
all that there are such sick people out
there in this world that would hurt an
innocent child children are so innocent
they humans are innocent in the in the
sense that no human deserves to be be at
any given time
I know that it is said that you know the
Sharia law is you know that you beat
each other and kill each other and stuff
but I'm gonna say that in Islam they do
talk about Sharia law but that was in
the major past and the the people that
bring up Sharia law now are people that
they have no idea what they're talking
about true Muslims
do not go by Sharia law in the sense of
walking around killing each other
stoning people and things like that that
you know we our hearts are to love
people and that's what we are that's
what we do and now am I saying that
there is no bad Muslims out there of
course there are of course there are but
I can't say that there's just only bad
Muslims there are bad in every culture
race religion I mean there's bad in all
and unfortunately it is highlighted a
lot of times for Muslims to be you know
brought into the spotlight because of
course Islam is one of the largest
growing religions and it's one of the
ones that are affected the most right
now in the news but beside all of that
because I you know I try and stay away
from that type of stuff but I'm just
trying to explain my heart breaks to
hear a story of somebody beating an
innocent child I would never watch
children plain I would never ever ever
accept somebody hurting us in as a child
ever and I would hate that I would get
thrown into that stereotypical well
you're a Muslim
and this lady beat a child and so you
know I'm gonna say that you know I have
to treat you the way that I would treat
her and that's really sad because first
of all I would never ever ever think
that that would be acceptable at any
given time and with that also you know i
sat there last night as I read that
message and my heart sank when I read it
because I just thought oh no but I
stopped and I was like okay but what if
what if a neighbor killed another
neighbor would this person not be
friends with any of the neighbors
because well one of the neighbors killed
the other neighbor
you can't hold everybody accountable for
one's actions so I'm hoping that during
the time that we're talking and figuring
things out that we can this you know we
can discuss that this woman's nasty
actions does not reflect on me it
doesn't reflect Who I am because I would
never do that obviously I love my kids I
love children I you know I did childcare
for 24 plus years I mean my life has
been nothing but children and more than
not most of the Muslims that I know
they're over I mean
overly protective and their children are
their life so just because one person
that calls themself a Muslim because see
here's the thing this woman could not be
a true Muslim if she was torturing and
beating a child because in Islam we
don't believe that our children are
precious gifts that God has created for
us to take care of to protect to raise
to amazing people to go into this world
and make it a better place that is what
our goal and that is what our job is so
for somebody to go and hurt a child and
call themselves a Muslim
it's so sad because now they're putting
themselves in our category but that's
not who we are
so now I have somebody that feels like
they can't be a part of me because this
woman an action she chose reflects on me
and my religion and that's so so sad so
I just want to point that out that
please as you guys hear things in the
news and you hear things being talked
about come to me ask me if you again if
you don't feel comfortable putting it on
you know on a an outside comment private
message me and talk to me
I would rather somebody come to me and
talk to me like this person did and
explain to me the situation that you're
having an issue with that way we could
talk about it and we could figure it out
and we can you know Hill it and move on
because I don't want to lose friendships
over something that had nothing to do
with me first of all but also that could
be fixed so simple so I just want to
make sure that you guys know as you guys
hear things please make sure that you
don't put others in the situation as it
was their fault because no one can be
responsible for one's actions but the
person that did the fault that's just
how it goes that's how the world works
and that's how I live my life day to day
I mean I can't blame you know my oldest
son for Omar going in and getting a
cookie before I said it's okay because
Omar is in the same house and he's a
brother to Maya I can't sit there and
say well Jeremiah you're going to be
punished because Omar ate the cookie
Omar you're gonna be punished because
you ate the cookie but Jeremiah you're
also gonna get punished because you're
his brother and because he made a
mistake you're also gonna get in trouble
how fair would that be and that's the
same way to look at as me and I don't
want to lose people over people being
stupid and making dumb choices and
making the most ridiculous actions that
they knew better or whatever was going
on again like I said I don't know the
story I know I haven't heard it but I'm
very I don't like the news I don't watch
the news very often and if I do it's
basically I watch it for the weather I
fast forward I get to the weather and
I'm off once in a while I will watch
about like the you know the wildfires
and stuff but when it comes to like the
killings and things like that I stay
away from that due to my anxiety I just
can't handle that I know if it's
something serious enough
my husband will fill me in otherwise I
don't really pay attention to the news
and so I'm really not sure where this
story is coming from I don't know any of
the details but I just know that this
bother the person very much and I agree
I don't blame this person whatsoever for
her feelings but I just don't want to
feel like I have to carry the
consequences for somebody else's actions
due to the fact that she calls herself a
Muslim when I am a true Muslim and my
actions show what I believe and
obviously her actions show what she is
not so anywho along with the rant there
I again hope you guys had a wonderful
day and that you guys continue to have a
wonderful afternoon and I will check in
with you guys tomorrow
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